Winning after losing

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Its ironical how fraction of seconds

Can change our life’s  directions,

With no possible way to escape

I wonder  if it was truly my life’s reflections.

 

No one will understand my zeal for winning

I simply  can not express the pain of losing.

 

Standing there every night, so scared and so hollow

Veil of loneliness creep up like a dark mist swallow

 

I wanted to run away somewhere new and unclear

A place with no judgement or fear,

I was blind and now I see

Best things in life are usually free.

 

They will always tell you what you can and can not be

But that is not who I am,  I now focus on me!

 

 

 

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Silliness in Love

Love

At times I may get upset

Without any reason

But just know that I only want your attention

I know at times I am hard to deal

But please just try…

Just a hug from you, makes me smile

I am not perfect and I will never be

But I promise one thing

No matter where life takes us

I will forever be there to irritate you

Make you mad and then love you ♥

Belief

forst

Far in the dark forest

She saw some light

So clear and so bright

Yet not visible to naked eye

She reached for it

Making her way through

Thorns and bushes

Bleeding legs, sunken eyes, aching body

Physically weakened

Yet determined

“Oh! I am there” She felt exhilarated

Energized spirit, relaxed body, full of life,

As she stepped forward, vanished light

Far in the dark forest

She again saw some light

So clear and so bright

Yet not visible to naked eye!

 

Did you ask?

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On one of these cool breezy winter morning in northern India, I was working on an office deadline and I was ‘disturbed’ by a phone call from my best friend. I picked up the phone in disgust and blurted “Hey Babe! I am busy, I will call you later”. Hours later after finishing my work, I called her back and asked how she was doing. But she cut short the conversation adding she was getting late for a party. Normally, I would not have thought about it but I remembered her having severe cold allergies which are usual for her in winters. Well, it seemed odd to me that she was going out so late, when normally she avoids getting out after eight in colder months as a precaution. “No, I am not being melodramatic!” But knowing her for all these years, made me think that I might have created a transient barrier in her mind after cutting her short so abruptly that might have resisted her from opening up now.

This led me to a thought that how many time in life do we actually listen to people? How many time are we available to lend our ears? We always hear to respond as we have been taught everything in life has logic, everything is definable.

Is it? Can you define an empty heart? Is it just a mere absence of someone, absence of love, long nested hatred or having lost the strength to love again! Why is it that being so close to people we can never measure the depth of their pain or love? We meet several people each day, our friends, our family, a stranger who just smiled at us and made our day. They all make our world happier but have you ever thought the pretense they might have to project to hide the storms growing inside them? How many times have you actually had a conversation with your loved one, asking them if they are genuinely happy?

“Oh, well who has the time? They will tell us themselves if they want to.”  But maybe you could have made a difference by ‘asking’. May be you could have stopped a ‘lonely child’ you saw on road from getting lost, if ‘you did ask’, may be you could have prevented a ‘beautiful women’, who was secretly longing to hear that ‘she is beautiful’ from getting into depression if ‘you did ask’, May be you could you have saved a ‘life’ if you picked up an unknown call and ‘did ask’, May be you could have saved a ‘failing marriage’ if you ‘did ask’. May be you could have comforted a ‘dying a soul’, if ‘you did ask.’

Giving someone a reassurance that, “it won’t always feel this bad, somehow it does change, it does get better”, does make things better! Lend your heart to those around you, those who need but won’t tell, you might not do it right, you might not know how but you will surely make a difference.

Your healing word can bring back life to someone, and you never know, you might be the person getting healed!

 

 

 

 

Final Adieu

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I held her in arms as she whispered ‘goodbye’

Her last breath as she let out a long sigh

Her face swollen, her skin cold and battered

By all means she left our whole world shattered.

I stroked her hand and wiped her eyes

Wanting so much for them to open and see

That I was alone

With agony growing inside of me

One last time I held her hand

And kissed her cheeks 

I wanted to carry her away from there

My loving Mother who was just too weak

I heard the people all around me

The silence of people now so loud

I walked away, my heart now broken

I tried to face the waiting crowd.

I watched those around shed tears

And utter words of sorrow

How could they know that I was dying inside

Now that I know you wouldn’t face tomorrow!

 

 

Life Teasers…!

Sometimes life seems harsh, unreal, annoying or even difficult but what helps us grow is that one ray of light we call belief, love, confidence or our own hard work.

My posts are a reflection to everyday struggle, in varied phases of life from people to work to love to life in general!

Have a good read!

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